feeling so awkward with them now...its like they dun want to talk to me...oh well not like i got anything to talk to them about now...


It would be a lie if I said I wasn't scared...I don't want to lose it...but things are starting to be a blur now... So many problems...why?? I feel left out of the group. Like the four of you are just slowly kicking me out of the group. I feel ignored when I'm with you all...talking to me that way, even if all I'm doing is asking a question. Do you have to be so curt? Forget it, I leave the group before I get the boot. I can hardly find anything to talk about when I'm with you all...Especially you, you turned into such a crappy person ever since that time...talking to me only if you need help...that's just BS.

Waiting for the day that someone can pull me out of this rut. Out of this black hole. I just need someone who can understand and be there for me.